I just recently had someone say to me, "How can you let her use you like that?". With this statement they were meaning why would I keep treating her nicely with abusive or less then nice response from this person. Her not treating me in the same way I was treating her. Also, how could I give all that I was giving or sacrificing with little to no appreciation given from the person receiving it? Financially giving with no concern from that person for how it was affecting me and my family. Wasn't I tired of it?
UM YES, I was tired! and part of me wanted to say, "I give it easily.", but that would have been a lie, because it wasn't "easily".
So, I really had to sit and think of WHY am I allowing this person to "use me"? Because honestly I had thought more then once, "She's just using me to get what she wants and thats it! Why would I continue to let this person drain me of all things mentally, emotionally, physically, and financially?" Everyone around me could see it, so why?
I had to ask the only one that really had the answer, My Father.
Here is was what the Holy Spirit showed me.
They can't use something from you, that you aren't freely giving to them.
This made me think.....
Yes, I am giving them my time, they aren't stealing it. I am choosing to give it to them.
I am giving them my patience, love, kindness, and service; you can't steal or take those thing from a person. Yes, I am financially giving to them, they didn't steal it, I gave. So, IF I am giving these things, then aren't they a gift? When you give a gift you do so willingly. You give a gift to a person to make them happy, see their face light up, and you give a gift that is useful to them, that they can USE! Therefore if I am giving of myself to a person I am intending on them to use whatever it is I am giving!
The Bible says I should give freely for it was freely given to me (Matt 10:8). But just because love was given freely doesn't mean it didn't cost. It cost the person giving it. Jesus sacrificed so we could be forgiven freely. We are loved freely, given mercy and grace freely, and forgiven freely; but not without the sacrifice that cost God His son at the cross and Christ His life that He freely gave. No one stole his life, He freely gave it.
Therefore, If I am striving to walk this life to be more like Him then I am going to give freely and hope that gift is used and not wasted. I am going to allow my love, kindness, patience, and all the things that I am striving to be to be used for His Glory at the cost of me sacrificing. This is the example that Christ gave us, therefore we follow.
So do you view yourself as the "victim" in this? and your just being taken advantage of? OR are you a gift giver and your freely giving the things that the Holy Spirit has produced in you? If so, then you'll want to be used. You'll give from the gifts that were sacrificially given to you freely.
SO, no longer will I worry about if a person is "using me" because I am choosing to freely give of myself to them; and hopefully, they will use what I give and not waste it; because it always costs someone something.